Figuring Stuff Out

I don't really know who i am, and I'm not yet comfortable enough to share my confusion with others. So this is going to be my outlet to figure stuff out until I can finally open up to those in life.

I really think that I am a lesbian…
Hmmmm… now when to come out


how many of us, as children, have had creeping thoughts of “i think i have a crush on somebody of my own gender” or “i wish i were the other gender” and dismissed them so swiftly and so effectively because those ideas were unnatural and unconscionable that they never had the chance to grow into our identities? how many more of us, when finally told from childhood that queerness is a real and good option, will be queer and will love it?

(Source: schoenbergwasright, via holy-interruptus-batman)

Feeling lonely

“No matter how much I feel, I’m not going to let it out. If I have to cry, I’m gonna cry on the inside. If I have to bleed, I’ll bruise. If my heart starts going crazy, I’m not gonna tell everyone in the world about it. It doesn’t help anything. It just makes everyone’s life worse.”

—   Jonathan Safran Foer, Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close (via durianquotes)

(Source: durianseeds, via lifeisanasshole)

How is it that I can feel so unloved and alone, even when people are telling me straight up that they love me?
Why the fuck can’t I ever believe them?

frankly i don’t even know if I’m gay or not

like some days its like fuck yeah! ladies

other days are like hmmmm…. maybe i want some guy action

then there are the days when its like.. both. both would be nice

and then there are the days when i want no one at all